Am I good enough?

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How do you handle rejection?

What do you do when something you've been working for and betting on ends in failure? How do you react to disappointment and a discouraging result?

I was on the receiving end of one of these situations today. This was something I had been preparing for and practicing over the past month and a half. This was an assessment that I did not pass. Allow me to journal for a moment and pour out my feelings.

I mixed emotions right now

To be honest, each of these competing emotions is fighting for the spotlight. At any given second, one wins out.

On the one hand, I want to sulk. I want to be sad and recognize my sadness. I want to be heard and understood by how I feel. I want to meditate on why I was not good enough. I feel like an imposter. Am I good enough? Are they right?

On the other, I am finding that fire burns within me. I know that I am good enough to pursue my passions. I know that I am beautifully and intelligently made with purpose and perfect intent. There is a time and a place for everything.

I cannot dwell

I know the path forward, but I need to be patient. My self-worth is not a function of what has happened. The process takes time. I'm going to take the night for introspection, but I cannot help but see this situation as a gift and an opportunity. I have my faults and my weaknesses, but they will not hold me back.

But he said to me, "My grace is enough for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." So then, I will boast most gladly about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may reside in me.

2 Corinthians 9 (NET)

So yes, I am good enough. And I will be back.